Analysis of a hot flash

What is this crazy feeling going on inside my body? I’m sure there’s lots of versions of this chaotic episode. I imagine my version isn’t new or bizarre. Although I do have that one moment where I wonder exactly what will happen next. Will I simply pass out in the grocery store line, or throw up in the middle of yoga. Last time I felt like this I was about 5-6 weeks pregnant. Since that possiblity is as likely as my dog Magic snowboarding I can only determine that this is …….ta da…….menopause.

And therefore, a hotflash.

Temperature rising in waves, gastric distress, unable to place butt over head (maybe only in my profession that matters)….sounds like a hot flash to me. But, I think I’ll investigate and see where this leads. Is something horribly wrong that must be resolved or am I experiencing a perfectly normal side effect of the letting go of my youthful body and embracing the wisdom of my maturity.

Well, even saying that makes me wanna throw up. So it’s possible.

I’ve heard some women refer to these tropical moments as “power surges” I like this analogy. Like somehow we are being plugged in to something greater, a higher source. I’ve noticed these women usually have a more casual attitude about the transition.

I’ve seen some woman that turn into virtual melting pots. The constant stuggle with the right clothes in the right place and choosing where they go and what they do based upon how hot things might get. Situating themselves in life to adapt to these changes. Hmmm, how’s this mirror life?

I’ve known others that went through crying spells that would go on for days and days. Emoting, emitting, exploding into uncontrollable sobbing and not be able to explain why. These women do tend to have unresolved emotional issues from their past prior to entering this transition.

So it leads me to ask. Is it a physical thing. The hormones decline, shifting away from reproduction, the body temperature climbs, endocrine system begins to “malfunction” ( or does it? )

Is it emotional, unresolved feelings undesirably surfacing?

Or a spiritual transition – as I am inclined to suspect – or perhaps whatever is happening is happening on ALL levels and when I tune in to my body i can understand better this complicated matrix of the transitioning female.

I think there’s more to learn here. I’ll get back to you.

Moon Transitions

The March Moon was a Lunar Eclipse in Pisces. A chance to disolve the boundaries of this worldy plane and let the heavens in a little closer.

Another moon, another month. Technically another 28 days for me anyway, the cycle that has persisted in returning over and over again since childhood. This moon was fabulously rich with beauty. Since that time I have been moving deeper in my own lunar journeys. The cycle of my body moving in unison with the cycle of grandmother moon. Her transitions bring me many physical lessons to cleanse my spirit. The fullness often bringing about a fullness in me. My breasts heavy and my belly full.

Something ancient comes my way when I tune my energy in to the passing phases of the moon. I remember my inner sorceress and memories far away come flooding back. I somehow know that an ancient grandmother speaks to me of the job of women’s transitions. To bring the ever changing energy of goddess to the ever love starved world we live in.

Another moon, another lesson. It is now the stage of dark moon. The sky empty of lunar glow. Inward I journey and ask for guidance to begin anew. To let new lessons into my life that open me up to greater ways to love. Each full moon, at least 600 now….have served to teach me about the powerful way in which women change. We change daily, monthly and over the course of a lifetime we are capable of bringing about great change around us. It is up to us of course to choose something new and avoid changing back to the same thing over and over. Letting it all flow, the constant changing world, our constant changing bodies all flowing and allowing health and happiness or resistant and and full of pain.